have you ever believed so much in something that you kept going at it, but after a while, realised that you have forgotten why you believed so much in it?
it would seem so logical, you have the reasons laid out, knowing them by heart already.
but when you really think about this stand, the conviction seems so faint, dim.
and you wonder, whatever happened in between the then and now?

it actually frightens.

and then there's this pressing need to grab onto something, a walking aid--whatever it may be--and retrace the steps.

because you know, it is important.